Since then...

Since then (and by then i mean my last post), I'm me again. An adjusted me, but me. I work full time and another part time. And I play with my friends! I go out to eat and I dont get out of bed in the morning because i love sleeping in with chaco and that is something that doesn't happen nearly enough. Something I relearned about myself is that I love cooking when I'm home alone!

I have great friends and we have a great time. I'm not scared of putting myself out there again. I've fallen head over heels and then fallen face first. Things work for a while and then they don't. Its scary when you know that you're not the one in control. You can't make someone else love you. But it doesn't hurt like in the past. Maybe its because i'm getting used to being tossed aside. But then again maybe I'm learning how to protect myself and really listening to when its not quit going the way you know its supposed to.

Rei Leigh will say, he's just a stupid boy. Ashleigh will tell me, at least your not alone. And Erin will tell me, aw i'm sorry boo.
All things I want to hear and all things that band-aide me back together until I heal myself.

Since then, I'm ok.